Distance

The mind can be ever so surprising.
I had thought I was starting to forget all about you.
Get rid of you.
Push you out of my memory.
I had been doing so great for so long.
Then today. A simple day.
There you were.
In my head.
I could've swore you were dead.
There had been moments were I willingly spoke of you.
And lately I had begun to feel nothing when speaking of you.
But today. God how today you made me feel everything without even doing anything.
Ruined such a good Sunday.
I was beginning to not even think of writing about you.
Writings of how I meant nothing to you.
Here I am again. Letting you consume all too much of my time.
Why can't I shake the slightest thought of you today.
Tomorrow I want you to be back in my head the way you had been the past few weeks.
When distant thoughts of you were better than any lusting thoughts of you
I just want to forget all about you now
That used to be the last thing I wanted to do
I am sick of being ruined by you
Consumed by you
I'm exhausted from these thoughts of you
Yet sleep is not insight.
And you should know I am all too over this fight.