Inspiration

I fell in love with you in the spring of 2007

Loved you for more than two years.

I will love you for more years.

In the summer of 2009 I fell in love with her.

At least I thought I was in love with her.

I wanted to hold her hand. Cuddle with her. Impress her.

I asked her once to be my date. Mildly joking. She told me I had to court her. Real classic romantic things. Even ask her father for permission. I tried. Then life caught up to me.

The first month of 2010 came. And oddly enough she told me something.
Something involving you.

See in the fall of 2009 right before I told you “I love you and care about you” ; I discovered the two of you knew each other.

I lost you when I told you I loved you and cared about you. But I was already loosing you. You had regretted this love affair for so long. When I lost you I told her.

But this something was that she likes you.

And you like her.

She told truths of how nothing had happened and how you guys truly were nothing.

But she felt the need to tell me. Considering I had told her all about you.
Loving you. Hating loving you. Missing you.
She didn't want to lose me just because of you.

Now I lay here struggling. Struggling to not lose another tear because of you.

Struggling to forget all about you. I want to be happy for you.

But I can’t do that for you.

Now I fear I’ll lose another to you.

I may not love her the way that applied with you but I’ve lost so much to you.

I lost my heart to you in 2007. I want nothing more than to have it back from you

Please don’t make me lose a friend because you had to hold my hand.